September 2023
thirteen
the lines between innocence and curiousity start to blur
curious about the stars
bright flowers in the fields
why my stomach dropped when you touched me
i didn't like it
i told you to stop but you continued
from then on my voice caught in my throat
anytime i wanted to scream no
i couldn't
i coudn't wash off the feeling
no matter how hard i scrubbed
your touch lingered on my skin
branded in my thoughts for what felt like an eternity
my innoncence stolen from someone i trusted
a boy who was greedy and careless
i started to care less about me, because of you.
you were eighteen
you made a thirteen year old hate living
i will never forgive you for the way i blamed myself for years